I get too anxious too easily especially when it comes to others. u_u I’m sick of always assuming that people think the worst and wondering if it would be best if I just talked to people less since they obviously see me in a negative light. Obviously I need to be more confident, etc., etc., but… it’s always people I like/am friends with/close with that I worry about more. Like I just dread something going wrong eventually. 

Because of this and a few other things I got a little askljjklfas about confiding in people again lately so… here I am instead. I constantly feel like people are so sick of me and I was starting to get past it a few months ago, but… it’s gotten so much worse lately.

I know that confidence isn’t an easy thing but… I’m so aware I need to work on it and I really try and… while I can do things like stand up for myself and appreciate some aspects of me, as soon as others come into play that just… dies. It’s hard to talk to people about these things sometimes as I said earlier since they think you just want attention or quick flattery or something… and I just think that this is something I really can only solve on my own… and I should because I can’t bother people about this. If I knew how. Ha. Ha ha… ah.